You Waited Until I Was Gone

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I walk around this place everyday.
You never notice me.
You never cared.
But if I died today,
Would you then notice me?
Would you cry for my life was gone?
Flushed away as my heart was to you.
I wanted to know you,
Always and again.
But if I was gone today,
Still would you care?
Why not tell me today and pray I not go?
Why not hold me and love me until that horrible time?
Why bother hurting my heart until I die?
It doesn't seem fare to me,
You hurting me once and loving me again.
My spirit stay here and watch you.
I had thought you hated me,
But you say you loved me.
Your words were beautiful,
Yet I did not hear them.
You sat next to me and cried.
You told me you loved me and that I shouldn't have gone away.
But yet, you were the one fooling around with your friends.
They pushed you,
I pushed me.
The car came fast but, so did I.
I ran to you , as you now did when I was gone.
But yet, then, I still hadn't known you cared.
But I still ran.
The car hit hard,
But you were safe.
You were out of the way, but I was not.
That split second of life I had to give,
I had given it to you.
Still, you did not seem to care.
You cursed me for pushing you,
But when you saw what I had done,
You cried.
You cried and held me tight when I least needed it.
I was gone.
Why bother waiting ?
Why did you wait until I was gone to love me.
I loved you.
But now, you'll never know.